One month ago we met our sweet daughter for the first time. I will have the memory forever burned into my mind of the nanny handing her to me under the closeline of drying baby clothes. It was surreal, to say the least...like a dream you have been waiting your whole life for finally coming to fruition. I can't even explain it. She was so tiny, like a little doll and she just stared and stared. I was crying and laughing and Orin was trying to capture the moment on video camera, resisting the urge to just drop it and embrace her. She didn't know what to think. You could tell it was a lot for her seeing our strange, unfamiliar faces and our unknown language. We took her to the visiting room and spent hours playing with her and getting to know her as time seemed to stand still. Then we had to say goodbye and leave her until we could officially sign her out the next day. That was hard. That night laying in our room at the guesthouse we thanked God for his beautiful gift but somehow it didn't seem enough to just say thank you. Then I thought back to a quote that I had copied and taped to my computer screen back home that said, "When God takes something from your grasp, He's not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better." Yes, Lord, through all those years of infertility and pain, why didn't I just trust you that you knew what you were doing. Oh me of little faith...
So great to recognize and see where God has brought you. It makes Nyah that much more a blessing, because you can truely enjoy her as God's gift to you. It's so great to see both you and Orin as parents; these kids are SO blessed.
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